Thanx, both of you. AmyC, you are like a dream come true to me. Anyway, I agree with both of you. I think it is unrealistic of me to force this. I have "compartmentalized" (love that word). I am over the leaving, the memories are mine, but I don't dwell. My detaching is hard as hell. I am doing it I believe. It is seeing her and not communicating or touching her that is tearing me down. I am now backing off my plan and wil do another. My focus now is to go dark, hard. I know karlah you did this for a while and got no response. I know she comes over my house during the week quite frequently. weekends she's with OM, but now I am not sure how that deal is going and I don't really want to ask anybody with my new attitude towards discussions about us. Anyway, I think seeing projects done that I know pissed her off, will open her eyes a bit. Again, these projects need to be done, not because of her. but they were things she had mentioned to quite few people, but not me.
I will go with a short term plan of getting through this long weekend. From there I will plan a goal for the end of the month. As the book indicates, if i can see it written down, it may help me stay the course. Please keep looking in at me. What about how things were handled last night? Should I do more of the same?
