I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

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So basically the gist is that I need to send an email to H telling him when I am coming back from Poland. Separated had some good comments on my last email. I'd love any feedback...I'll be sending it out tonight, hopefully late enough that H isn't online so I can leave him to sit and read it without things being awkward. By the way I went out last night, and will be tonight as well. This trip is good for my self-esteem. I was nothing but appropriate, yet I do like the fact that I was getting some male attention. I am sure H will somehow pick up on this vibe when I get back. That's usually how it works...Here's my draft:

Hi,
I checked with corporate housing; I need to leave Wroclaw by Thursday, October 16th. With your test then, probably won’t see you until the wee hours of the morning:).

Thanks for being flexible about trialing living together. I could even stay some nights with a friend to give space, depending on how we are both feeling. (Oh wanted to mention F is cool, reminds me of JL.)

I understand how you’re feeling now, and I know you can make your own decisions. I’d like to enjoy time with you seeing if we can be comfortable as friends and roommates rather than constantly discussing whether the relationship is working etc. I understand that you are working on yourself. I like the person you are becoming, and this brings a new dynamic. Maybe we will see that we can be happy together as the new people that we are, maybe we will not. I don’t know. Time will tell.

I’m happy for us to do our own things, and if you want to share activities with me, I’d love to take your lead. We share pets etc.; this doesn’t mean giving up independence. I am fine with this. I think it’s exciting, a new and probably better way to do things.

You’re not stringing me along; I appreciate your concern for my feelings. I am also concerned for yours. I’m making a very well-informed decision to remain in a situation with no guarantees, like any situation. I understand there are many possibilities for how this could play out, many of them not good. Things could change dramatically for better or for worse at any time. I know that we are both taking risks.

On another note, I’ve been reading a lot about Yom Kippur (thanks for your email on the High Holidays), and on the eve of Yom Kippur, I want to apologize for everything that I have done that has hurt you, and take full responsibility for the situation we are in today. I deeply regret causing you any pain and I sincerely ask for your forgiveness.

I understand the right greeting here is, may you be inscribed and sealed for a great year. (Hope I got that right)
Thanks for reading my novel; no response needed.

-ITH