So our counseling session is tomorrow. I am very worried and nervous. I think H his thinking this will be a way of giving me closure and that makes me sad. I can't worry about that though...can I? I just have to go and see what happens.
H did come over today to pick up D...D was out with a friend so it was just he and I. I got a little flirtatious with him and we ended up on bed. It was wonderful and I made sure I was the first one to get out of bed. After he said "well I was doing a good job not thinking about sex...now that's ruined". Still not sure if him having sex with me is a good sign....he's so confusing, but it did make me feel less "frustrated" We hadn't had sex in more than a month. He was very complimentary during...after was very non-commital. I told him I liked compliments and he said "well didn't I give you compliments all over the place during?" I said...yeah, but it would be nice to hear those things after....He said "maybe I don't feel like saying those things after...doesn't it mean more that I said them during?". I said...I suppose so.
Lord how I miss him...our life...the one I didn't take the time to appreciate...if only I could get another shot at it.
We hadn't had sex in more than a month. He was very complimentary during...after was very non-commital. I told him I liked compliments and he said "well didn't I give you compliments all over the place during?" I said...yeah, but it would be nice to hear those things after....He said "maybe I don't feel like saying those things after...doesn't it mean more that I said them during?". I said...I suppose so.