Hello, all, and thanks for your advice and kind words.
About the house, I'm not really sure what I want yet.
Part of me wants the house to be sold already and off our backs, to have one less thing tying us together. To my mind, if my family is broken, that house will continue to be a painful reminder. I will always regret it's loss, but it's only a house and just a symbol for what once was. In that case it would be better to not be constantly reminded of that every day.
But it is the place we had intended our S's to call home for at least the first part of their lives. It's where my S's have called home since their births. I don't like the thought of taking them completely out of that, at so young an age, without some comparable substitute. An apartment can be home, yes, but there's no comfort of permanence nor even the illusion thereof.
And I am really strapped in my finances paying for an expensive apartment and half of a large mortgage. Moving back into the house would solve part of that problem.
I am just scared of saddling myself with a longer-term commitment that might very well, in the end, bankrupt me if I am not careful. And scared that W will decide to move a distance East enough to thwart my ability to effectively parent my S's. I don't kow what her ulterior motives are and I must be extremely cautious.
So I will contact my L and try to meet with her some time next week, if possible. (She's been in court the last few days, and hasn't had a chance to respond.)
Originally Posted By: Gypsy
AND... as stunning as that mural is.. you can and will create others of beauty and meaning while painting through your soul.
