trying to be patient and strong 5

[karen43]

Yep, pretty quiet--always a good thing. The L called and she got some D papers from H's L so wants me to come in this week or next. Fun! D8 is trying out for a play tonight, the Little Women musical,--I'm not as it's going to be early December right around my D--too much stress!!! But I can be a stage mom for D8 and still see my friends, and I'll prob. work on the sets and everything to keep myself busy. I don't want to add any more stress on the next 2 months. I'm going to do the afterschool program today and that's always a lot of fun!

I emailed H about D8's audition tonight and said I'm going to go & cheer her on, he can either do that also or get some one-on-one time with S14 or come tomorrow night instead. Haven't heard back yet though. If he shows up, I assume I shouldn't sit with him right? If he's the handyman (I'm trying to keep that in my mind). Thanks again Kat for that one!!!

[JeffSTL]

Karen writes: Progress--when he used to do stuff like that I was upset for hours maybe even days so hopefully at some point it won't even bother me at all. The good news is that he is so horrible now as a dad and husband, that honestly I think D might be a relief, just like his moving out was.

I'm sorry your stbx upsets you but it sounds like you are not letting it get to as much. It's a bunch of crap that, because of the kids we will have to deal with these losers for the rest of our lives.

W41
M10.75 years
D9, D6, D6, S5
OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me
WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08
W files for D 07/18/08
Date I'll forgive W for A = never

[karen43]

Yep, and btw I was worried about where to sit tonight but H emailed that he is going to spend his time with S14. My thought is he's too wimpy to face the theatre crowd--last time he came over the Theatre Director was icy to him--it was so obvious!!! Karen

[yenko69]

Quit letting him get to you. No offense, but from what you have wrote I don't like your H much. Drop the rope and quit worrying about where you are going to sit or what you are going to do. Just do it for yourself the K's and he will do what he is going to do. Nothing you can do about it. Other than that, hope everything else is going good.

because of the kids we will have to deal with these losers for the rest of our lives.

Yeah, just be the better person. The best revenge is a well led life. Your dignity and honor should not suffer do to others actions. On the other hand, f'em anyway.

[Sugar and Spice]

Karen, you already are the tbe better person. Somedays it is easier than others to let it go, but I see you progressing more each day.

Keep it up and I hope D's audition goes great.

[karen43]

Thanks, guys! You're right shouldn't worry about that stuff!!! And thanks for saying I'm progressing, b/c sometimes I have days where I'm not sure that I am! But I feel stronger and more self-confident now so guess that's something. And I can tell y'all what to do!!! Well, I was looking good tonight-wore tight jeans and a tight black shirt, and full makeup and all, always fun to do that.

I have to give H credit: he showed up for a minute to wish D8 luck and then an hour later to tell her goodbye. Our friends were polite and friendly to him, well one or 2 of them anyway! I was kind of surprised when we got home an hour later and H was still here. Guess he changed his mind or whatever.

I'm in a super great mood today, even more than usual, b/c my car was ready today!!! I love it, and I picked it up and I'm so happy! It seems good as new which is good b/c the final total bill was over $8000!!! (Thank goodness we have great insurance so just had a little deductible)!

Then I had Terrific Tuesday, the afterschool program at my church. The kids are so sweet there and all the other women are really nice too. Always a good time.

Well, D8 did pretty good at her audition. She was definitely the cutest one there, but we had been tipped off earlier today (by some who auditioned last night) there are only 4 female parts for Little Women, well younger women. And Jamie is probably a little young for them. The nearby college apparently sent all their theatre majors, there were about a dozen for every part tonight, and I heard there were also a lot last night, so us regular small town folk probably don't have much of a chance. But it was good practice for D8 and we got to see a bunch of our friends. I didn't try out but signed up for painting the sets b/c I always enjoy that!

The only bad thing is D8 started coughing at the audition and told me at the end she had a sore throat, too! Poor thing! We left immediately then, before they finished up, but honestly so many theatre majors there, I'm not too worried about her missing out on a part! She practiced her song for about 5 minutes today we were so busy, but I told her for "Peter Pan" which is one she really wants a part in a couple months, we'll spend more time practicing so hopefully she can get one (and me too)! Karen

[yenko69]

Aren't the kids wonderful. D11 sometimes just makes my day. I do hope your D8 gets the part. The proudest moments are watching the K's succeed. It is heartwarming.

[karen43]

D8 has the stomach flu!!! Up about 6 times last night poor thing!

She is so sweet & funny though. She wanted me to talk about the "old days" when I was her age: no computer and 4 channels of tv and that kind of thing. Today she was asking me: Did they have the New Testament when you were my age? Did they have animals then? She thinks I am really ancient!!! Karen

[kat727]

I remember as a kid, I thought 30 was really old. Heck I am still learning and feeling pretty young at the ripe old age of 44!!

I hope she is feeling better soon. She is going to have some cake to eat come Friday.

kat

[JoieDeVivre]

Hey, Karen,
I logged on tonight for the first time in awhile. I posted an update in Piecing.

I see your D is pending. I'm so sorry. But I know it will be good to move on, and get on with life. I have not gone back and read all your posts but how are the kids doing with everything?

Joie