God give me the patience and the strength...7

[theotherhalf]

"and i don't see anything wrong with just sitting around on the farm either and just talking casually"


I don't either, in fact I love spending time with him, of course I do. But why on earth does he do this when he is so SURE that he wants a D and is not coming home? I it out of guilt? He feels sorry for me? Or is it because he is so confused and he's doing what HE wants at the time?

and I do stay out of his way. I don't do anything he doesn't ask of me with the farm stuff. Other than the day he took calves to vet. I did that because in no way did he think if he asked I would. 180 for me, I am too afraid and hate working with the livestock. So I just went and did it.