This really deserves a longer post, but in a nutshell, I stopped looking for boogeymen, and my relationship changed dramatically. Maybe he could always sense my distrust and so acted in the way I expected, sort of like law of attraction. I just know that I have been spring cleaning internally, and I feel lighter and happier. I can't worry about what H might do, because the truth is, he's not doing anything but being wonderful right now. He's going out of his way and comfort zone to step it up and support me and build our relationship.
Me, I feel happier. Lighter. Relieved. Carrying that load around took its toll. I can't...won't live my life that way anymore.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
