I guess I am just looking at all this, thinking I can't believe that this is the way it all ends. Not a glance back, not a second thought....nothing. He got the idea in his head and went full speed ahead, without a second thought back. In fact, any thoughts he might have had were squashed by his self-validations and rewriting history.
It makes me so sad that I mattered so little to him. That he can just walk away from 22 years.
I was one of those people that Gigi wrote about, who thinks that if they just follow all the steps, they can really stop a divorce. That there is something that we can do.
As much as I am happy to discover and learn about myself, I can't help but be sad that we weren't able to do that together. I do understand the mistakes that I made, and am working hard on them....I just don't think I will ever understand how I was too late...I don't understand how you walk away without giving the person you made a commitment to, a chance.
Donna,
There is so much in the last line I quoted above. My wonderful new W says you either have the committment "gene" in you or not.... I firmly believe while we ALL were not perfect spouses... Our spouses chose to leave instead of doing the "hard work".... We can rattle off loads of modern psychobabble... In the end, they frankly are cowards...
I pray you find all the very best....
RMG
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." from "Good Will Hunting"
