Thanks Snodderly. I wish you had that magic wand as well.
Have been really busy with work and the kids. I am not sure, but I really feel like most days I have really pulled the focus off H and just left him out there.
I went almost 2 weeks without seeing or hearing from h.....until he came by on Sunday for a little bit. It was a very strange visit. He was very quiet and zoned out. Even d13 asked me what was wrong with H after he left. He didn't stay long. Ran to work...or wherever.
Snodderly, I feel as though H has totally distanced himself from me. Stopped all communication and is totally lost in lala land. Depression? Withdrawal? I know I shouldn't analize but things just feel really strange right now and I guess I am waiting for the rug to come out from under.
As for D papers... H filed in July of 06. Nothing really has moved forward on this. Not sure when he is planning to finish it. I have left it to him to complete. I will not do the work. His family thinks that he will not either because he will then lose my insurance benefits. They think that is the only reason he is hanging on. Who knows.
Anyway, I really am feeling ok....just a little confused about the lack of contact. I thank God for the kids. They fill my days with laughter and joy. I wonder how H will ever get over how much he has lost with them.
Hope all is well....and you are enjoying the fall. The leaves are just starting to turn in Pa. and there was frost on the ground this morning. Looking forward to a long weekend.....
Please let me know what you think.....and I will continue to keep the focus (mostly) off of H.
