I am about 99% convinced now that my marriage is over. W has not sent the email like she said she would saying that it's "not necessary" as he probably "won't come" (whatever). He's also moving back to Eastern Europe where he was originally from soon.
I was made redundant from my job yesterday and haven't been able to perform well due to these ongoing issues in my marriage. W and I had "the talk" yesterday evening and she's acknowledged that she is not "in love". I asked her why it's so hard to end the marriage like everyone else does and she said "it's not just about love. It's also about friendship and companionship". We are so close to each other and never tire of each other's company. I just don't understand.
Is it normal not to be "in love" with your spouse after and during an affair? I have said to my wife that it's for the best if we get a divorce, even though it is aboslutely not what I want - I love her more than life itself. She then says "but it's so serious; it would be so sad...". She says it's really hard to love me because there are so many layers of resentment.
I am at my wit's end. This drama has been going on for 10 months now and she hasn't been "in love" with me all year. Why does she want me in her life?
I feel I will be leaving these boards behind permanently before too long and will be trying to heal from some very deep trauma.
Me: 46 W: 46 T: 23 M: 20 DS12 DD11 DS5
W left: 01/28/08 Discovered OM: 02/26/08 W back for 9 days: 04/08 W returned 05/21/08 EA/PA - 01/08-07/09 W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)
