My wife suppose to call me tonight so I can say "Good night" to our son. I am still on business trip in London which is 6 HRs ahead of her. Hopefully I will get a chance to talk to him tonight. He is out on a field trip with his cousin today. I don't think my wife has any intention to keep him away from me. It will be much easier when I am home this Friday.
I am working on my controlling issue. I realize I have stopped being her friend and become her advisory, bad mistake. I am trying to get back to basic and become her friend again. I am trying to support her in any way that I can if she will let me. I was also very judgmental toward her and her family. That's one of the biggest issue. I didn't put myself in her shoe before I made my stupid comments. She had a tough childhood. Her dad divorced twice and her mom divorced 3 times and they are single now with no income and saving. There are so many things that I need to work on. I am trying to change it day by day, little by little. I am taking this challenge to make myself a better person for myself and my love ones. This is so tough. Sometimes I just can't see the light of the tunnel. If I see the light, hope is not the cheesy one....
I was planning to drive down to see my son at least once a month for now. I still need to take care of my mom and grandma (86) at home sometimes because they both don't drive and don't speak too much English. My sister and I both take care of them.
The past several days, I was even thinking move to her hometown so I can be closer to my son, but it is tough to leave my family here also. I guess I can't worry about that now.
Thanks for all of you listening...
Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!
