I have tried to post before to you a couple of times and your threads been locked, I really didnt even know what was wrong there was just no area to reply....then duhhh it must have been locked.....this is a tough deal thats for sure.....sounds like you are doing the right things...i know the pain inside screams some days....ok most days...but one day at a time and try to focus on the good things that happen each day and the simple things ...thats what I try and do....like everyday i used to see my kids...now i cherish when i get to see them....