Darned if he does, darned if he don't

[Kelly23]

Rough night...'talked' from 10 pm to 2 am this morning. He let me know that he was not ready to get married when we married, he only did it so he would not let me down. WTH? That he did not have enough time to live the single life but thinks that I did. Funny. We got married when I was 18 and he was 22. I am so crushed. He cheated on me, I am not sure I want to stay married to him and instead of trying to rebuild our marriage, he is telling me we should not have gotten married when we did.
I am crying hysterically and then he says..this is why I never want to talk when you want to, you always get upset and mad at me. He then tells me that he loves me and does not mean he did not want to marry me, just not as soon as we did marry.
I barely made it through the day today. I am so exhausted from crying and feeling my heart ache. And now it is time to go to my night job.
Please pray for me. I am not sure how much more of this I can take. I just want to give up on my marriage, my life, my happiness.