Saffie, Yes, I know what you mean about telling the truth even if it hurts. I told most of it on D-Day. Then I told a little more about three months later after realizing I wasn't protecting my H by not being truthful. Then I told the final truth during a lie detector test. I passed the test but a few details came out during the interview and that's what my H said is killing him. So he really does know every dirty detail, and I mean every dirty detail but he cannot be convinced of this. I know what you are saying about asking myself if the M can be saved. I do ask myself that. I do keep myself in check and have started standing up for my self-respect. I am starting to learn that I do need to forgive myself even if my H can't forgive me. Thank you, LL
