I really debated on whether to write this or not, as once again, some of the newer members may think that my H is making babysteps, whilst he is doing no such thing !
Yesterday was my mom's birthday. She turned 60. H sent her a huge bunch of flowers (roses). One of my mother's friends' husband was so impressed he told her that H probably wanted me back.
He doesn't.
This is just him, wanting to be kind. Letting us all know he's not a bad guy even though he made certain choices in life.
Today was the first time D9 asked him if ow was around and he said 'no, she's out with her friends'...It means NOTHING, no breakdown in their relationship. Yet I was relieved to hear that they don't spend EVERY WAKING MOMENT TOGETHER.
Oh well.
I think I knew, when I first came here, that my H was the type to make a decision and stick to it. He left, and he's not coming back.
I am trying to be appreciative of all the good in my life. Right now it's hard, because I'm struggling inside, but in my heart I know that I have so very much to be thankful for.
My dream was shattered and I have not yet decided what to dream next. I think I'm making it up as I go along....
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
