What do I do now?

[lost3031]

It's so difficult to understand how you can love someone so much and yet not be able to be with them. It's all about trust - H doesn't trust me because of the way we separated and I don't trust him to change and be the person I need him to be. We've just never been on the same page with anything, even during the marriage. When I left, I asked him to give me the time to get myself sorted out, but it seems like when I finally decided I wanted to be with him, he suddenly changed his mind and doesn't want to do his part to make it work. So now I find myself getting extremely angry, almost to the point of hating him, because of all the things he didn't do when we were together and all the things he won't do now. So it's the hurt and the hate that keeps us apart... and I really don't see a way around that.