I had therapy yesterday. I am starting to realize that I think I'm coming to the point of wanting to the do the LRT.
One thing that I acknoweledged to my T, which I don't know if I have said here on the boards is this:
I have spent a lot of time focusing on saving my marriage and putting my marriage before myself. I have thought that this whole thing w/ H was the "sickness" part of "in sickness and health" or the "bad times" in the "good times and bad times" part of my vows. I believe in the vows that I made. HOWEVER, there does come a time for me (meaning, my age, that I want to have a family still) that I will need to make a decision on my own. That I have done everything I can do to save my marriage. Therefore, I am on the verge of the LRT to really put it all out there. And honestly, I don't even know how I would want to LRT to turn out (meaning, I don't even know if I want to continue being w/ H). So, I think after the house is sold, I will do the LRT.
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
