Mixed Signals or Just My Imagination ?

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I have been dealing with serious sinus congestion, courting a sinus or lung infection for 3 weeks.

It just makes me so angry to think of the countless times I was there for my W in her many migranes or other health emergencies, and I, who am rarely sick, now must face my sickness alone, without any comfort or caring.

I have been to the doctor and am starting on antibiotics, etc.

I think what's killing me is that I have no one to share my concerns, fears, hopes etc with anymore.

Even if W would listen, it would not feel right, as she is obviously not committed to me or my welfare.

And in light of all I have given her of myself, hoping that one day she might return the favor, I get very angry.

I know I am in a vulnerable place right now, but I really wish I had a woman that I could share my ups and downs with, who cared for me as I cared for her. God I miss that in my life.