Mixed Signals or Just My Imagination ?

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Just got off the phone with W. I called to say goodnight to D6 and she was crying. I couldn't make out why from D and asked to speak to W.

She explained that it was about some marker that did not color or something vague and said D was tired. I spoke to D again and she was still crying and when asked what was wrong she said 'everything'.

Spoke to W again and asked for clarification and she began to be agitated with me because I said it was disturbing to hear D cry ( and a bit unusual. She rarely crys like this at home with me)

So I had to say goodbye and God I feel so far away and unable to comfort my D or communicate with my W.

Its as if they are on the other side of the world right now !

W was unsympathetic to my concern and kind of raised her voice at me before I said goodbye.

I just needed some reassurance from her.

I am very sick right now and my dog is going into surgery tomorrow (may have lymphatic cancer) and several other things piling up on my plate right now and W is not helping me to feel that she is handling things well with D.

I feel very isolated and unable to do anything. Its as if they were drowning but I am locked tight in a glass box and can't reach out to save them.

Tomorrow I meet with the pastor of the new church I have been attending, so at least I will speak to someone who I hope will be able to give me a little face to face spiritual encouragement in this whole thing.

I feel like I am suffocating....