Well yesterday she called me on the way back from drill. She was all excited about reading the 5 languages of love. Talked for awhile until I was getting into a bad cell area. Called later and talked for over an hour. Just some normal stuff and then some stuff about the getting through the future. She then had to fix dinner for the kids and asked if I would call her before I went to bed, but she did not want to be pushy. I said I would. I fell asleep on the couch and she ended calling because she was worried. Talked for a little while.
Then things turned bad.
I went out to see her and OM's truck was at the house. So I sent her a text.
M: who is there W: OM. He stopped by to talk. Sorry I have to be honest with you everyone about everything right now. M: guess your now contact promise went out the window W: He showed up and wanted to talk. Sorry I keep letting everyone down! I know I am a horrible person.
She called a little bit after that. Said that she said everything she was supposed to OM. That she was confused and did not want to talk to anyone right now, she needed her space. She was trying to call IC.
Later in the day she called and asked about some city business. I asked what was on her mind. She said she was confused and needed space. I told her we talked sat about that and doing the right thing may not always be what you felt. She agreed and said she needed space and hoped I understood. I told her the no contact was as much for her benefit as mine and that it would screw up her head. She said she understood that. She said she had an appointment with IC on wed and did not want to do anything until then. That she was sorry. I told her I hope is not to late by then. She said it was a risk she would have to take.
Hurt, yeah some. PO'd for awhile. Now, who cares. I was done sat when I went and saw her. Since then I have felt enormous stress trying to turn back to a life with her. Now it is gone.
Setback, maybe. Death nail, more probable. Good thing I was so skeptical about the whole thing. See what the future holds, it is bright either way.
