how do I keep DBing when he feels this way?

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(((lifeline))))

I agree with some of what is being said, that your H doesn't have the right to make you feel like a whore for what you did.
My H had an affair, and I can say that I have tried my hardest not to make him feel bad for doing it!
And reading alot of thing hear I know that most people here don't treat there spouse's in that way.
When people come to this site such as yourself, from the other side, we should not be beating you up for it.
We are all human and we all make mistakes, and in coming here you are admitting and facing what you have done.
And I do not believe that your h has a right to treat you in the way just because he is the injured party, nor do you have to accept it because of your part in this.
So I think we have to sit down and decide what the next step is or should be. COunseling is an option, as is retrouvaille.

I am sorry that you are being treated in this way.