You need to tell yourself that you DO NOT NEED your H for you to go on. You need to focus on what needs to get done, yourself and your kids.
Arrange to take you time. Get your hair cut, go shopping or window shopping, get out. Meet your friends for dinner, join a book club, you are welcome to join our movie club. Keep yourself busy.
Babysteps. You CAN do this.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory