Mishka- Wrestle that bad boy to the ground. There's an idea! CEO is the kind of guy who likes to do the asking. He's always telling me about girls who can't leave him alone and I think he comes after me because I'm a girl who CAN leave him alone. He's told me that he always tells his sisters not to call and that they're taking that tension and excitement of doing the asking away from a guy if they call. I'm not going to do that to him- in fact, asking out an employee must be the ultimate in tense asks . Under normal circumstances (ie where the prey isn't my boss), I'd be quite happy to ask- I'm not afraid to get no's!
As to what I'm holding onto, I think the answer is love, and hope. I'd also say that I'm not hanging on in the sense of waiting. I'm moving my life on, and keeping open to reconciliation bearing in mind that the chances are slim, slim, slim. What else can you do? Close the door entirely? There are other reasons that I can't do that which I haven't posted on the board. For now and probably until the end of the year I have to maintain some kind of R with H. That's just the way it is.
I feel OK this evening. Still a bit subdued, but I'm going to read the Babe in Total Control book tonight and see if that helps.
