my story

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I am not doing well with acceptance and distancing myself from the situtation, also not GAL or PMA, the only thing I am not doing is freaking out on him, I get emotional, but not attacking him. I think I am doing well with the kids, giving them lots of emotional support, and supporting them visiting, being positive about that. I have tried really hard to work out the visitation in a calm manner. I try to be accomodating about things as they come up. H is stuck in negative mode, nothing is good about me, I am all bad. It hurts very much. I think he is moving on much faster than I thought he would, taking off his ring for example, and that hurts a lot. I am also admitting that I am still living and breathing hope for a change, and it really hurts that there isn't one.

I am tired of feeling like this, but don't seem to be able to get beyond these feelings, I am struggling with how to shut off my feelings for him, and move forward alone. I'm just so sad, all the time.

Does anyone have any good advice to help me move ahead, even just a little, I am floundering.