At the house and had some dreadful R conversation with H. He said he just can't see it right now, being happy with me. He is acting pretty dreadful, and is a cold alien robot.
The one good that came from this was that he's suggested we trial me living here for 2 weeks when I get back. However the bad thing is that he could be willing to throw in the towel if it doesn't work after only 2 weeks.
He kept saying "you need to be willing to let me go". He was so cold and hard and generally mean. He has this MLC book by his bed, and I don't think he's gotten to the R section of the book yet as this section actually says GOOD things about relationships and how people tend to blame others during this time.
He just can't possibly think of leaving me if things don't work after 2 weeks???!!! I even told him the R stages, as I thought it was appropriate, that we were still in stage 1...
Ugh I don't know what I should do. I mean I definitely need to do 2 weeks here. This is an opportunity but it as if he has already made his mind up!!!
Any advice, help? BTW he brought up the R talk, not me. Then he said he was unhappy with me here today mostly. Some things were OK, like watching shows with me and laughing with me. I don't know what was bad then???!!! We didn't do anything else!!!
Should I be freaking out or happy? His classic MLC man talk is pretty mean. I have never heard such callousness. He doesn't even care if I am with someone else supposedly as long as I am happy. He may never want to be married in his life.
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
