LADYBUG trying to detatch..but doesn't know how.

[ms ladybug]

H called me last night when he got home from work at 3:30am. Why does he want to talk when I'm sound asleep? Anyway, he asked me what I was going to do about moving out and I told him I'd talk to him about it later. He said, "I'm tired of seeking you out to talk to you. You never try to talk to me, and I'm always here. So, I'm not going to do this anymore. I'm tired of paying all the bills and everything for a house I don't live in. You can't continue to live there if you're not going to work on the marriage. You're going to get ONLY what the court says I have to pay you and no more. So, pack up your sh!t and get out!" Then he hung up on me.

So, at 3:30am, I'm wide awake and pissed off. Makes for a not so great day at work right now.

He's referring to me not wanting to talk when he gets off work (2-4am), and not wanting to talk while I'm at work. His comment about working on the marriage also makes me angry. He's so mean, and unloving, how can I WANT to work on things with him? I don't want to move, but maybe having a place of my own will bring me some peace. But, I don't think I should just hand over the house to him. Even if we have no equity in it, it has potential once the market picks up.

I wish I can wave a wand and turn him back into the man I married. I still love him deeply. I still think that maybe he's still in there somewhere.