I guess it's over

[Trixi]

I'll betcha he didn't get to do this when he was younger.

Actually, quite the opposite. He was always super cute and had his choice of the ladies. Round about 7th-8th grade started getting involved w/drugs and alchohol. His parents ended up sending him to a school for troubled teens. He and his mom and step-dad were in constant battles while he was being rebellious. And, the final straw was when he wanted to borrow his mom's car because his battery was dead. They said no and so he took the battery out of his mom's car and put it in his. It was at that point he got kicked out. (Which he thinks was a good thing because he would have kept up with the bad behavior.)
He moved out and roomed with a bunch of guys (party party party). At the age of twenty two, he met a 17 yo at a concert. They dated; she got pregnant; once she had the baby, he FINALLY got his act in gear and buckled down and went to school while working. So, he didn't really start to "settle down" until he was like 24-25. And even then, he still was no saint.

I guess I am just not "the one" for him. He has had a quasi-single life for YEARS. He admits that he shouldn't have been that way- BUT, he also adds on "YOU should have MADE it so I didn't WANT to go out." OR, "You shouldn't have let me." Sigh.

Now I am not sure why I am going to talk to Jody. I mean, for God's sake, I have been bending over backwards- giving him whatever his fickle emotions wanted and it STILL wasn't enough.

At what point do I just look at the sitch and say he isn't good enough for ME? He doesn't want me to stand in the gap; he doesn't want to be married. Why do I still love him???!!