Feeling a bit confused still. It feels SO right to be here. I have to pinch myself to remember that I can't walk up to him, sit on his lap, and tell him that I love him. It hurts that he is questioning whether he can be happy with me, even as I sit in our home that we created together. Right now I just love him SOOOOO much, and I do know that a lot of people would love to be in my shoes today. I know that and am very grateful for this opportunity to spend the night with H. I really am.
I truly believe that something big will happen between H and I this week. I am going to keep up the DBing today, and will not raise any R questions whatsoever, unless he does. At some point he is going to need to learn that I am meant to come home next week. I'm feeling a little nervous about this. He has already started talking about my US biz trip though, saying he'd like me to pick some stuff up for him there. So, in many ways he loves the life we have, i.e. sharing responsibilities, specifically me doing things for him, but he still hasn't outwardly committed to living together again.
I feel like I need to make a move, and maybe it's the email on Wednesday, though it seems a bit sappy now that we've been so light with each other today. I feel like we are at a crossroads here. Either I come back and move into our home, or I don't.
Anyway, right now he is downstairs working, and I'm watching a show he recorded for me. He loves to introduce me to new shows...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
