Third part:

This morning, i left the children to school, returned home (he was there) and no words at all, neither from me, also i said "good morning" briefly and shortly when he wake up...!!... He left home to work, and i am here working a little and then writing to you all...
So.... i know i had made a big mistake... i know i can justify my bistake bc the past, mostly bc i need to go ahead from that... but I HATE HIM reacting the same way as always... I DONT HAVE NEVER RIGHTS TO APOLOGYZE or say I AM SORRY... Remember the day he went to a discotheque, ask for forgivness, and i accept it...!!... WHY THAT TIME YES, AND THIS TIME NO...?
By the other side, what can be a good 180 response for this problem by me...?. In the past i will not talk at all to him as he didnt want to talk to me and also bc i was feeling bad and angry... i have rights to feel angry bc the injustice, dont you think...?
Waiting for your support and advices....
Andrea