Thanks for your reply. I will take all the support I can get. sorry about your sitch. Well today is my 29th anniversary. Trying not to think about it is like trying not to breathe. Funny thing happened this weekend and I am hoping to get responses from any WAWs (Amy or Sandi). My wife attended a wedding Saturday with OM. Wedding ws 2-7. I know the couple getting married and I am sure there was a large afterparty. the W has spent weekends with OM, where I do not know because he lives with his mom. Anyway, I was at my camp and left to see my daughter off at her Homecoming Dance. I met all of her friends and their parents and my daughter was beaming. She was so proud. Anyway, I left there and went back to my camp (1 hour drive each way) to attend a dance I was invited to. My W had been told that I would be doing this by my daughter. So my W knew full well I would be at my camp and attending this dance. She showed up at my camp around 8:00. an hour after the wedding ended! She was a half hour away from camp in one direction and home in the other. She got a ride to the dance from some friends at the campground. My friend informed me they had driven her. I had been there for an hour having a great time. when I saw her, I grabbed my coat and proceeded to leave at the dismay of many friends. I went ack to my camp and hung out with some frineds. My W got a ride back with another firend and was feeling no pain. She decided to sleep on my couch in the camper. I went in about an hour later to make sure she was asleep. I sat on the edge of my bed struggling with what I should do. I thought about picking her up off the couch and putting her in the bed and tucking her in and I would sleep on the couch. I laid there thinking about this as an opportunity and decided to just leave things as they were. The next morning as she laid on the couch and i was walking out with my coffee, she said you didn't have to leave last night. To which I replied, no that's all right. She hung around most of the morning nto the early afternoon. Coming over to wherever it was i was at and hanging onto my conversations. She finally left and i closed up and left.

This is my dilema:

AmyC told m that when she would give me a sign, it would be obvious. She definitely stays with OM in on weekends and even during the week, but not at my camper. Why would she not stay with him Saturday, after a wedding, after having a couple of drinks and not going to the after party? Why would she go to the campground, knowing I was there and then attend a dance where she knew I was (she was told I was there and that I was at the camp for the weekend when she showed up)? Why did she tell people to tell me that there is no reason I shouldn't stay and that I should stay? why would she tell me the next morning that I didn't have to leave? What was the big debate over staying in my camp? (she drove around with this friend for about 30 minutes before she finally came back to my camper and decided tostay) Why was she hanging on my conversations? She also asked me for gas money which I didn't have. I had checked out her car and saw she had an 1/8th of a tank of gas. Barely enough to get her home. Also, clothes and items she has ben taking from the house and our camper to take to her "room" at her friends house are in her car backseat and trunk. She is still "living" out of her car after 9 weeks. It is very sad for me to see that. Did i miss an opportunity to shine in her eyes and emotions by not picking her up (yes physically) and putting her into the bed and making her more comfortable?

I want to call her and tell her I am thinking about her today and us. I know i shouldn't. I spoke with her mother last night and she is sending my W money for gas and whatnot. My W is financially screwed up. She cannot make ends meet. As AmyC indicated, I don't want her back for economic reasons. she complained to her mother that she should be getting half the money hr brother pays me for rent. I took him in to help make ends meet. I am getting 100 a week from him sometimes. 20 goes to my daughters school lunch every week, I pay her gym fees of 20 each month I just covered her car insurance of 180, and tomorrow night I am doing her rear brakes, parts are 40. She pays no bills to the house, no child care, no food , nothing. Her financial responsbilities are her car payment, car ins (I am paying, but not this month), and her credit cards (which I didn't even know about. she is in collections with all of them). I have my mortgage, all utilites, house insurance, car insurance, my credit card bills, reapir costs to house, camper loan, camper fees, camper utilities. Am I wrong for denying her any money? I barely make enough to put gasin my car and food on the table with everything else. I have had to budget and talk to all my creditors about getting on a payback budget so i don't get over run.

I pray that she showed at the camp because things with OM are failing or have failed? Or that she is realizing things, reality, aboutnot only her financial situation, but her relationships with her kids and me. She has only her two girlfriends and the OM in her immediate circle of friend. With my mini bombe about health insurance last week, my text to her regarding her as long as we ar married statement (I text her married?), not being there for my daughters homecoming dance get together and her sad financial situation is it possible that she may be "waking up"? The fact that she is still living out of her car, why didn't she bringing all these things into her new "room" where she lives? I am seriously confused....Looking for some one to see his and let me know if this is a sign or not. I am not sure anymore....