i have wondered about you - remember that your xh was much like mine (passive) and thinking about how he "hangs" around now. THEN I look at the time line....it takes forever doesn't it.
Been thinking about that alot lately. My XH has not been gone long enough (trusting said that in a post to me not to long ago). It has only really been a year since he REALLY bailed and decided not to have relationship with me/kids at all. Since then he has slowly gone further and further away. shoot -- his new job now only allows for Sunday visits and he is only doing every/other weekend. AND I am SURE he misses her -- but the interesting thing about someone in MLC they dont miss them enough.
My xh is into the hiding --- he is kind and funny when he shows up -- but I see the misery in his face, his eyes are dead. By being away and not having any time with d12 he is allowed to continue being single.....you know the freedom that they sought so strongly when tehy left..TO BE FREE- NO RESPONSIBILITY...and that is the life that he is living now.. FREE.
My life? Trying really hard to try and figure out how to get my OWN life--- I LIKE what is happening in me. I LIKE how I am growing and like how my old free self is coming back. i like my sense of humor being alive again, my laughter and my outgoing spirit..it is ALIVE again FINALLY and I missed her.
And again the angry me-man oh man am I glad she is dead. BECAUSE she is. My kids - they too have seen the difference. I hope that they will learn by my example to work through their "Stuff" as they grow up - even though it is tough. (sure alot harder than running you know? BUT after almost 2 years of counseling --and I am still going it is well worth it!!) I am so thankful for my ultimate Conselor (God) and his facilitator in my life my c.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
