Hi guys, my thread says quiet but I think the this board should be called "quiet", at least the last few days... Let's see if people will resurface again now that the weekend is over...
My weekend wasn't that great. My dad was admitted in the hospital again late Saturday night. Some kind of implication that should "be operated" but in his condition they will not do it. So they are trying to get it fixed with medication etc. I am trying to be positive but really cant. I am not negative either, I just accept the possibility of things turning out very bad sooner than expected. But I am still hoping for a break.
Thank you all for your posts. Right when I started over analysing, this issue came up with my dad and gave me the right perspective. Life has a way...
Gypsy, you are right. I dont have to do anything. The only thing I have to do is find my peace of mind and protect it. Through the various phases I have been through, I have been dealing with issues as I have said before, closing each issue and moving to the next. I have realised that after a whole year of separation with celebrations, anniversaries, birthdays etc behind me, I am not afraid anymore of weak moments. I know I can handle everything. But I am impatient and feel like since I have paid my dues I want to feel completely free from my xH. And I realise I am not. That's what bothers me.
I guess I need to accept that I am stuck with him for life and must find a way to deal with his inability to work with schedules regarding our kids. Plus I need to slowly and patiently train him to stay away from me and not count on me as his "wife on hold" or closest friend. And make him understand my house is not his. Am I asking for too much?
Ali, my trip was wonderful. I dont know if it was Pisceans heaven the way you mean it, but I think being with someone talking openly about Xs, kids, feelings, concerns about the future without worrying that person misunderstands you is a great feeling. Being able to laugh and have fun doing simple things like having dinner or a Starbucks coffee felt great. Especially if that someone has a great big hug and is funny and witty and since we both knew a lot about each other and where we come from. Unfortunately we didnt have enough time and unfortunately that ocean is making sure we dont do anything crazy like move to Lake Como or Tuscany as we have been dsicussing for months now. The fisher man option is still open though... LOL!!!
Coach, thanks for stopping by. Stay away from this forum though, just visit and leave quickly... Piecing seems more fit for you. (That place your W's grandfather owns, is worth alot of money you know?)
W2G, nice to see you!! I am glad you seem to have reached a stable place.
