Ok... time to journal the positives of our travel, the first one after reconciliation and so different of the last travel to italy... on that travel, although we were reconciliated only 3 months before (the first reconciliation) he told me he got bored many times, and i found him nay times sad and a little not interested at all at me... even we makes loves a lot, almost every night on that travel, i never felt what i felt on this travel to NY... 1. I work so hard to show him support in his marathon... i walk, walk a lot to see him 5 times in all the road and he was so happy bc that...!! 2. We were always at great great humour... we laugh a lot, make jokes, was incredible 3. Although i had smoked (i was the only person who smoke between all that atletics person) he never get mad about that and understand i need that, also i smoked so little... and never in front of him bc i know he hated it 4. He was so care about me, what i need, what i wish... 5. we shared too much with other couples... 6. he was so affective with me all the time... 7. He receive with happiness the comments from the other people about me: "What a spuse you have, she is amazing how she travel a lot just to see you on the marathon and support you"... "You bth are a kind of couple that aways is laughing a lot"... etc 8. He is always so care to give me some details when some words bringing me back to the past... when he talked abour security policy on airports since 11 sept... he jumped that time he traveled with OW to florida.. like saying me "Thats travel isnt in my mind and i dont want to be in our mind" So, lets continue working on my fear and doubts feelings trying to value each day more all the great work is is doing and all the lovely details he is giviing me right now... andrea
