How do i move forward when I feel like all my shoes are stuck in the mud???
So far I have made the choice (initially more out of fear of the mud, but now more deliberately) to stay in my shoes because that's where I'd rather be...but I'm getting tired.
At times it feels like H is going to push me out of my shoes and into the mud whether I like it or not; then at other times, it starts to feel more like H might be willing to help carry me...but then turns back, away from the mud, and yet still there, just out of reach.
So are you doing things to make yourself happy? Are you creating a life that you would be proud to claim as your own? It is fine being tired, but now you have to find a way to rest and continue the stand. Recharge your batteries and do something fun. we are doing a movie night tomorrow at 8:00 our time, "Death at a Funeral". We will be posting on the "Fun" site near the bottom of the list of sites.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Thank you...I needed that! I am doing things/acting in a way to be proud of myself...sometimes i lose sight of that when I get caught up in the expectation game and then get let down.
Wish i could join the movie fun tomorrow night...I've wanted to see that, but i'm getting hammered by the class I'm taking this semester, and will be working feverishly to get a "small" project finished by THursday evening!! Maybe next time!
Hi just having a catch up . I am sorry to hear that you H drifted back to OW , but unfortunatly this is to be expected , while he trys to figure out what is important to him. I hear you about being tired and thats why I have taken quite a long break from worrying about saving my M or any DB'ing .
I heard a quote the other day from a lady that had been very successful in business and had then invested in a new project that went horribly wrong. She lost a small fortune. Her words were not to think of what you had lost , just concentrate on and be thankfull for what you have.
Somewhere along in this process your needs will must be met. A lot of what we try in this process is placing our own needs on the " back burner " . our need for love and companionship mostly. Its this I believe is tiring , going it alone without the support of someone close.
