Andrea, Lord girl, Your feelings of anxiety are so totally normal when you've been through what we have. There would be no way you wouldn't feel them. Time will help these feelings. That and your H showing you he loves you and cares deeply about your feelings now. I wish we could bypass all this mistrust and anxiety as its so distressing sometimes. Somedays we feel so confident-those are wonderful days. Other days when they do things that brings back all the bad memories we have to ask ourselves what do we know to be true. Because he had a meeting somehow it brought back bad feelings for you,but in actuallity he did nothing wrong. Feelings aren't right or wrong Andrea, they just are. We can't stop them, but we can look at what's happening that we know to be true and dispell some of our doubts. I emphasize SOME of our doubts. Some will be there no matter what we see,or what is happening around us. Its just part of the process of learning to trust them again. We can't get sucked in by these feelings too much. Its not good for our PMA, and we can get an attitude with our S, when they've done nothing wrong. I think to a certain extent they understand our doubts. They know we will have them. Hopefully they will do all they can to reassure us. We need alot of that during this time. Some of us get more than others-assurance that is. This is where you come to vent those doubts and feelings. Others will help you maybe put it into perspective. I'm so sorry to hear of your H's injury. He must be so disappointed! I do hope its something that will heal in time. I do hope all of our doubts and fears heal in time too. It WILL get better in time as everything does. Have a great weekend anyway-make it special! Rachael
