Oh yes, I loved her endlessly, deeply. She was perfect in my eyes. She did say this - she didn't like the pedestal, she felt it was pressure. I couldn't understand. I didn't think she was perfect but I thought loving her was perfect. I thought she deserved everythig I had. Oh yes, I was dedicated to her. very much. completely.
This is why I felt I could cheat. And while H was reeling and fighting for his marriage , I could of continued cheating. It was not until he made a stand and said I dont love you for what you have done , that I came to my senses.
