Well I didnt have to wait until tomorrow when hubby comes home to find out what his "soul searching" decision is....
My mother in law called me today and said... Sandy..I love my son and have to accept what he says..honey ..move on..he is done.
It hurts like crazy that he did not have the courage to tell me. There is no way it took this trip to decide that..he had to know all along...
I am hurt and devistated but what can I do... I need to accept that he no longer wishes to be married to me.
So my goals are to move on... and have no contact at all... only by email or text about the kids..i figure i will only have to let him know my schedule.
I cant talk to him and heal...it hurt too much...
It sucks..I had just purchased us both a copy of "the love dare". I was hoping we could both read it... i got thru the first two days, but I think it will be counterproductive for me to try that and try to heal...
so as hard as it is to say... I am giving up.... I cry as I type that..because my heart does not want to quit. But I dont have a choice... he doesnt love me..he doesnt love me..he doesnt love me...
If I say it enough...hopefully it will click... I hurt so bad... Thanks for all the advice..sorry I sucked at DBing..I know I am just too emotional to succeed at it.
I will check back.. I am addicted to you all But for now... no more DBing for me...
