I'm steaming right now. Just steaming and sick and tired.
Snooping exchange (I say I'll stop but I won't so, lets just go with that). H talking to a friend of his (a friend of his and OW).
Husband: i have some weird stuff going on, but i'm pretty good. Girl: like what? hows your love life? H: oh, just personal crap. ugh G: oh no....divorce stuff? something Im familiar with if you want to chat about it H: no, actually my relationship with Beth is great. She's really awesome G: ok GOOD!! H: i mean, we're getting divorced. but we're totally friends G: i understand. I do H : it could be such a trainwreck and it's totally not G: thank God its not! H: i know!
Why? Why do I even bother? I'm starting to think that I'm sickly obsessed with trying to save my marriage when H doesn't even love me and H couldn't effing care less. How can I not believe that H isn't using me as a crutch? Really? Do I need a husband like this? I wouldn't even accept this behavior from a friend!
So, yeah. I just feel like spitting in his face right now and turning and walking away forever. FOREVER!
