Hope4us struggle, part 9 or 10 or whatever

[Hope4us]

Thanks for the concern Pup. Everything is fine. I just decided I needed a little break from posting on DB.

I just feel like constantly reading and posting on here almost sets me back from the focus I need to keep. So for a little while at least, I'm going to not spend so much time on here.

And there's really not much to post anyway. Things seem to be going well. Little by little we seem to be connecting more and more. Still no affection, she's still on the couch, I'm not sure if she's looking at "not just friends" like I asked her to or not, but since my note calling her out last Monday it's been different. Even my friend Deb told me last night that the email exchanges between W and her are different. Deb described them as "warm" instead of the "matter of fact" tone they had as recently as 3 weeks ago.

W and I spent all weekend together except for Friday night when I went to our H.S. football game. She was TM'ing me most of the game, asking when I was going to be home, having some good natured banter back and forth. We went shopping today and she's talking about decorations for the house, Christmas stuff she wants to buy, things like that. She asked me when my mom was having Thanksgiving dinner and I told her I thought it would be on the Sunday after. She said she wanted to have Thanksgiving dinner at our house on Thursday and then "we" could go to my mom's for dinner on Sunday.

For her to not be committed to our marriage, she sure seems like she's thinking long term. Actions, not words correct? She's been thanking me for stuff, which she hasn't done in a long time. Friday I took the afternoon off work and mowed the yard and then I down loaded some pictures of her, the kids and some vacation pics on a digital photo frame. The frame also shows the time and temp. I put a note on it for her that said "I thought this would be a good addition for your desk. You can tell how long it is until work is over for the day, how cold it is in your office (which she complains about constantly) and the reason you're working". She was very excited. She talked about another admin at work having one of them and how she thought it was cool. She wanted to know how to set the clock, how to load more pictures etc, so that was nice.

So that's about it. We leave for Florida in two weeks and W is excited about that. I'll post periodically, but unless something drastic happens, I'll probably just update every few days or so. It helps me stay focused and not be so worried about the little ups and downs, but to pay more attention to the overall tone.

Hopefully in the not too distant future we'll really begin to make progress and I can spend more time helping others on DB with what I've learned.

Of course, that could change in a minute if her mood swings back, but to tell you how nice it's been the last week, she's PMS'ing and is still better than she's been in a long long time.

Thanks for the concern Pup. It means a lot.