Last night I called my dads wife. I told her that I was happy that she stayed with him, that I know he had a hard life and that I was grateful for her being with him, that it was a blessing.
She cried and told me "You don't know how much that means to me".
See, all these years she thought I didn't like her. Realistically, I just didn't know her. So I was able to give her some healing.
I looked up my brother's phone number and called him also. I haven't talked to him in about 9 years. He at the time he was a mess and had used me for money.
Now, he's got his life together and went to the funeral in NY, by driving from where he lives in AL. We talked for about an hour, reconnecting, healing. He told me to call his/my sister which I'll do.
I guess I'm less alone, and feeling like maybe there is hope for some connection with my family.
Ad far as W, well there's nothing there. I'm at about 10% left of 'caring' since it's painfully clear that given a chance to do something SHE wants to do as opposed to paying her obligations to her kids, like support money, she will choose herself.
I guess I should find out what she'd have to pay legally if we were separated, not that she COULD pay, just so she sees her obligations.
But I almost think 'what good will it do?' None really.
So, as Bworl said in a post to jeff223,
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We don't need to be on the bottom to begin working our way back up. Start where you are. Work your way up from there.
