I truly miss love

[Sanderika]

Thanks Bill,

I have treated my H like I Love Him, Care for Him, Respect Him and I am His Friend for the past 38 months. I want to continue to do this.

My friends can't figure out why I don't hate him. I tell them I look at it with respect for him to be making the choices for his life that he needs to make regardless of the pain it brings to my life. It is H that has to deal with the consequences.

I will CONTINUE TO CHOOSE to live my life treating him the same way. I think that will ultimately make me feel good.

I think the hard part will be the unreciprocated love, care, respect and friendship along with the loneliness, all things I already am used to feeling. They don't get easier for the most part.

Another thing is being a single parent....I hate it. It's not meant to be this way.

Thank you so much...I value all the friends I have made here.

Sanderika