Thank you both so very much...while you have brought me to tears, I do know and realize that my S is here and I have him in my world everyday to treasure. I am happy being home with him and taking care of his needs.
I have taken good care of him during the past 38 months and I will continue. He and I have developed a wonderful relationship and H has been out there somewhere and honestly doesn't even know who his son is anymore. My son will respect me for being here with him.
Tomorrow I will retain the L I have chosen and take the rest one day at a time. I know my H will be in for a rude awakening when he fully realizes his losses. His gain isn't going to be worth it. I am planning to have no contact with H. I will look at this more like a business transaction (as one other DB'er put it). I will leave it up to my L to look like the bad guy. H can get mad now but will only be able to blame himself for the consequences.
I still wish there was something I could do to turn it around. I will continue to DB right to the end until the D is final.
Cinders, I am sorry to hijack here...I have watched your story carefully, I feel like we have a lot in common right now.
I wish we were not in this place and my thoughts are with you and your family.
Sanderika
ME48/H48MLC T 33y M 28y S16 OW 8/7/05 Bomb 8/16/05 Sep 9/05 H f'd D 10/3/08 D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09 D dismissed 2/5/10 H served me D papers again 9/4/10 D dismissed 9/26/11
