Hi Sanderika, I am sure Cinders will forgive me for replying to you here. This caught my eye
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This world is so unfair...I cannot see a future...
I really do understand how you are feeling but I would just say -yes life is so unfair not just for you but for many many people-it was ever thus, we have just been lucky that for 10,20 plus years are lives were good. Your son is 12yrs old, he has a future. I am sure you will agree and you will want it to be the best future possible so for now he is your future. For him you will find the strength, courage what ever it takes to get up each morning and provide for his needs. Yes it will not be what you hoped for or what you had planned but it is what it is. We may never know what happened to our plans or our marriage or what our husbands thought or felt. One day we might, for me personally I don't think I will ever know and I have learned to accept that. I know my actions initially hurt my children deeply by my despair and inability to see a life without my h,they told me later that it felt as if they didn't matter that they were not enough reason to move forward and live. I hope your son never has reason to feel that way, because it broke my heart to listen to my children tell me that. Limboland is the worst place ever to be and you have hung on along time. Your H has chosen his path and for now you must do what you have to, to protect your son and you both financially and emotionallly. H may well live to regret his actions, you may never know but you have to accept for now that you will be moving along on your own with your son. This is the hardest thing I hope you will ever have to deal with, but deal with it you must and one day you will find it gets easier and the future doesn't look quite so bleak or scary because you have the contol back in your life. I wish you well and hope you find the strength hope and courage you need to build a brighter future for your son and you.
