Wow. I am so sorry about your friend's reaction. My bet is when she calms down from the shock of hearing you are dealing with cancer, she'll see her behavior as irrational and a gut reaction of fear (and possibly betrayal, as she might see your keeping it a secret a betrayal).
Had to comment on this post cuz WOW. You are in my head.
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I have no respect for who he has turned into and feel that I would be wasting my energy if I kept trying to be his friend to get him back.
YES!!! Its hard to have respect for my H as well. Plus, why have I been struggling to be a friend to someone who has betrayed me?
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Going dark is letting me finaly heal from the emotional wounds that I recieved throughout this ordeal. It is the final step I needed to just be able to move on and let go. Thoughts of him no longer fill most of my day, but they are still there more than I would like. I am not affraid of the big bad divorce any more, just look at it the financial piece that I need to have to move on.
Yes. I even told H last week I need to see him less, talk to him less. He is respecting this, but like you, I see him reaching out to me more. It still hurts to have him close sometimes, hurts to see him.
The financial part? Yup, terrifying. November will be the very first house payment I make on my own. After that, ramen noodles til the next month.
