Ok so I am supposed to be sleeping right now. . .but I can't! I'm too excited! So I had to come on here and blog because no one else is awake to talk to! Lol.
I just had a half an hour long conversation with hubby during which we discussed moving in together when he get back from his training!!!
Let me start at the beginning. Earlier today I was out shopping after my staff meeting and was busy and asked him to call me later so we could sort out our plans-if there were any in the works-for later this week. He said he would when he got off work. So I was busy all night basically and thought he would be getting off at eleven so it was nearing that time and I was getting sleepy so I texted to make sure that was when he was getting off and he said he was already off for the night. I gotta admit I was a little pissed that he hadn't called in the two hours he had been off, since he had said he would. I held it back though and just said "oh ok" and then "thought you were gonna call" just nice. Not "why didn't you call jerk! I've been waiting. Blah blah blah!" Which is what I would have done in the past. . .oops.
So two seconds later he calls. He said he was really tired and in bed and that is why he had not called. I (still slightly irratated) said it was fine and that we could talk later if he wanted to go to sleep. He said it was fine.
So talk we did. . .we still did not make any solid plans for this week. At one moment he said he might take a couple of days away to be by himself, and while I do not want this I said no problem like a good little Venusian!
The conversation turned to army talk and he said "it's not that long anyways" and it kinda hurt because it felt like he was saying "it's no big deal, you're overreacting" but I just restated what I said yesterday about how in my mind it meant one step closer to sending him to war and that I did not know that we would make it through something like that given our fragile state. There was so much talk army and relationship wise. All good though. I stayed calm and spoke slowly and reinforced that I trust him to make good choices while he is away.
Ok now the really exciting part! Lol. On Thursday when we were spending the day together I asked him if he would come visit me at my new apartment (when I get my life pulled together enough to afford one that is. . .) and he said "we'll see" mystery hubby speak which generally has meant yes. And I can't remember exactly how it came out but I said something about getting a two bedroom so we could live together. He reminded me that I always said no to living like roomates, which is true. When we were living together and he would be mad and go sleep on the couch it would offend me and I would launch into my "we can't live like roomates" speech. But now I would be more okay with it because I know it wouldn't stay that way for long (no I did NOT say that part to him so put those 2x4s away) I just played it off and changed the subject. But tonight on the phone I said again how I would feel better about this whole situation with the army if I had some stability relationship wise and brought up living together. He said he had been thinking about what I had said and that it could work as long as we had seperate rooms and he could be left alone when he wanted to. I was really excited but at the same time pointed out a few pitfalls, being the realist that I am. First of all we live in different cities and I would get an apartment here. Second I would not be able to afford a 2 bedroom place without some financhial assistance. And third I would be fine with him going out to be with friends but there would be no friends coming to the apartment, this has always been my rule and one that has caused friction in the past. He agreed that the first two were issues and questioned the third one and I just said "because I do not, nor have I ever, felt comfortable with random guys that I do not know and who are disrespectful of me behind my back being in my house." I kinda put my foot down on that one because it really is a bit of a deal breaker for me. I am not a super social person when it comes to having people over. Family is fine in small doses (well my family anyways) and I have had friends over when he was away or to come over to watch a movie now and again. I know it sounds terribly one sided and in truth it is a double standard.
Anyways. . .I ended that conversation saying it could definatly work out but that I would rather discuss it a different time and place and he agreed. We said goodnight shortly thereafter and he is going to call me sometime tomorrow about possibly getting together after he does some packing.
Wow. . .I really am in shock. Can't believe there is a real chance that we could be moving back together in the next month or two. How insane!!! Even though it would be "roomates" status for now. I don't see any difference between that and being married except that we would have seperate rooms that as he said "would be off limits" to the other person, unless invited I assume. . .
We would still shop together, cook and eat together, hang out together and obviously have a lot more sex! Lol. And as I said before I would just have to DB my butt off to show that I can respect his need for space and that we can find a healthier way to deal with conflict. And once those things fell into place we would probably be able to turn the second room into an office like we had before (his man cave more preciesly) and try for happily ever after. . .again.
Sigh.
I gotta get me a job!
There was more conversation, I'll probably post more tomorrow as there were some other nuggets that could be up for speculation but those are the highlights. I really do need to go to bed. Tell me what you guys think!!!
