You have to stop beating yourself up. As Puppy said, both have your share of the responsibility for what has happened in your M EXCEPT FOR THE AFFAIR. This is ALL him!
It is a weakness in him that caused the A. If he had been a better H, he would have come to you first. It has NOTHING to do with you being a better wife.
Please try to understand that.
LIS
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ILYB Jan 08 PA Conf Feb 08 OMW / OM contacted S Jan / 09
No one ever has, or ever will, escape the consequences of their actions.