Well, i wrote a post before but my coumputer fail to continue, so i will need to write again...
Its been a while without writing here, bc sometimes i feel maybe i need to be appart from other stories here and live my own story... but always i miss you a lot and i think this is an excellent free therapy that in some points helps me too much... also i always care about you all and how are your life..!!...
Thanks nick and cristina for your responses...
Ok, last post i wrote you about my needs to send a mail to my h expressing him my needs to talk more about us, our R... i did it and i confirm that my fears and doubts about sending it were right bc his response... I sent him a mail so affective and expressing my admire bc all the efforts and work he had been doing for our R... but also expressing him my doubts about we never talk about us and the R and how we can know how we feel if we both never talk about this... That in the days we were dating before he get back home, we used to talk a lot about everything between us, that he expressed me his desires to go to c.. and that talks stops and he stop his C session withput telling me nothing more about chossing another one, etc...
When he got home, he didnt told me nothing about the mail... so i asked... did you receive the mail i sent you...?... yes.... Why you didnt comment nthing about it...?... Bc i hate letters, mails and all that stuff.... if you want to talk, so talk, dont sent me that stuff..This had told me in an bored and little angry mode... So i got angry too and expressed him how i can talk if i feel a barrel between us... and that also i feel so sad and dissapointed bc his desconsideration about my desire of a better R that was the only objective and intention f the mail....! I left the bed room and read a little on the dining room... and then go to sleep...
The days after that, we both try to lt it pass that discussion, we had never talked again about that, although we had been sharing a lot together... he is a little more affective, but only when i initiate touching or caring...
Cristina you are so right about accepting the man he is, and yes, i know i can teach him a lot being as affective as i want not reserving myself bc his accttitude... i remember a lot michelles butterfly effect....
So, it seems i am a little boring about my R... i need some actions appart the routine, and my h use to bee too much routine adicted...!... maybe bc i am not working, maybe bc my oldest child are in a camp, maybe bc all that i have too much time without doing nothing... i dont know... But sometimes i feel our M needs some points out of routine, and my h use to be very resistant to that...!!..
Bt the way we had beeen enjoying a lot days at beach with our baby girl, dining time to time, am exercising a lot and he too... so... lets time do his part...
see you around...
Andrea