Digging in

[yenko69]

I did go and meet with the W tonight. My expectations were that I should have just met up with Kat.

When I went to the me and the W went in to talk. The first thing out her mouth was that she was so sorry and understood if I wanted to leave. It was genuine. She apologized many times to me for hurting me and being so unfair to me.

She agreed to all the conditions that I set. No contact with OM, transparency, her writing a letter and giving it to me, taking it slow and a couple other things. She said that she had already broke it off with OM and told him not to contact her, she would show me anything I needed to see or anything else that I needed to help build back my trust in her. She understood how skeptical I would be for awhile.

She said it was like tearing down an old house. She could tear down everything but the foundation and that was me. She realized the good times and the deep love, even though before all she thought of was the negatives.

When asked she did say it was like a switch that had went off. That her own personal problems and everything about the A came to her. That she was going to IC to fix her problems. How she had isolated everyone from her life and the chaos she created.

She said she had a long talk with her mom today. They have not talked much since this has happened. She said she felt she owed my parents an apology and almost went there today, but she wanted to talk to me first.

She understood how hard it was going to be to get past this. That there would be ups, downs and setbacks along the way. That we needed to help each other through this. When I said something about R books she asked if she could borrow them. She also agreed to get any book that would help us get through this.

We took D11 out to eat and we went back my W was going to make some cookies. She asked if I was going to stay or if I needed to go. We talked for a bit more and she understood that I had to go and sort through this turn around. I told her that I was fully prepared to end it if I had not seen a real change in her this time. She said that she understood how I felt. It did surprise her when I texted her about filing an emergency D on her. She also knows I would have done it.

We made arrangements for the week when I would see her or just talk on the phone. We were going out Thur to dinner and see Fireproof, she almost broke down when I told her what it was about. Then she asked if we could go Friday even though I am supposed to work and it would mean so much more to her. Friday is our anniversary. Think I will call in sick.

She never once put on a victim role. The only hurt she said was the pain she knew she caused me. As far as actions, she threw away some stuff that OM had gotten her. I told her it bothered me and she said she understood and bagged it up and outside into the garbage can. I will wait and see if on Monday she has the letter I requested her to write.

There was a definite change. More then I have ever really seen out of her since I have know her. Just something that I could sense.

Skeptical, yes very. I'll just wait and see what happens right now. A lot more said, but can't post it all. I do look more for actions right now then words. Only time will tell.