Ok, lets journal a little just to continue actualized my piecing moment....
Writing on hopefulness board, i realize how long my journey had been and how different is my h now from that h i get back on the last reconciliation... also i accept i still have many fears that the story of that reconciliation repeat, that the bad vicious and confutions return... but beleive me, i am working a lot to maintain a PMA....
H feels so confortable with home, with me, kids, with his familly world... he is making plans for all always... He is so gentle and glad when i call him to office just to say hello... i dont do this always, but time to time...
About the C, remember he began a therapy session and left it bc he didnt like the C... i think that maybe bc the fear i have that his confution arise again, i feel the need he going to therapy... So, last day i asked him... Do you retake the C sessions with another...?... he aswered me "no..."... and thats all.... Sometimes i try to think maybe he doesnt need it bc he feels so clear and cofortable with his actual life, but then i return to past and the fears came back... What if his confution punch him again, and he is not prepare to resolve it in the right way...?...i dnt know how to retake the issue again with him...? he is not a man for R talkings... What if he really doesnt need this...?... can he remain sane and happy even not going to C...?...
Well, besides that fear on me, everything is s well between us, he is affective, caring and i dont see him sad, bored, or face confuse... that face i had seen on him many many days on our last reconciliation
andrea