Trust me.... I dont get it either.... I really dont count it as four seperate times... its basically one ongoing time for at least 7-12 months.....but..does it make a difference? cheating is cheating.
I think I am not mad as hell because I am mad at myself for not being a good enough wife to keep him around.. I can face the fact that I built walls and was not as open or sexual enough or there for him when he needed me..
But, I love him with my entire heart. I know he loves me..he has told me and I see it in his eyes.. He has made poor choices and because he has allowed himself to develop feelings for someone else..he doesnt know if he wants to risk losing her to fix our relationship...totally sucks.
I am going to find the book "The Love Dare" from the movie fireproof.
I cant give up until I have given it my all. He was a wonderful man and I am hoping to find him again.
